Ok. So I thought about updating alot of times. I really did, but life was insanely...insane. Like, may and june. May was basically me feeling sorry for myself. I started caring for little things like popularity and being invited to parties and having fun going out to these parties. Pathetic litte me. I have *kinda* gotten over it. Not really, but getting there. Then June was...wow. This guy, at my school? Your usual grade 12 super-popular, star of the basketball team, scholarship in his pocket, and pretty girlfriend in hand, died. I don't want to say the wrong thing, because there were so many rumors floating around. And then again, I'm the girl who never gets told anything, so everyone else probably knows the reason. I have a vague idea. Starts with being D and then J off a B. Basically, S. It was like a giant black cloud was hung over our school. People were quiet and crying and oh my god. The basketball team. They were walking around in a pack, even though they are all from different cliques, with there hoods down. Didn't make eye contact with anyone. I think this woke me up, because, you know. Its kinda hard to continue thinking about being popular when there is this soap opera drama going on right in front you. Hell. Even I started crying when I got home. I didn't even know the guy. Never said two words to him.

I think, now, after junior high and my first year of highschool (yes, I'm done. exams and classes.) I have learned alot. Mostly how to NOT get your face smashed into the ground. And that, really, high school is MEANT to be hell. Seriously. Sem 1 was a blast. Sem 2 was the worst 5 months of my life. Anyways, here is a list of things I have learned. I though this up while walking dow to IGA to get some milk. 3.25%, y'all. How my dad likes it.

1) There is a huge, HUGE difference between fighting with you best friend and having fun with someone else and thinking 'something isn't right'.
From my experience, you and your best friends are always gonna make up. Even if they/you screwed up baaaaad, it works out. It just does. BUT, if you feel even the tiniest sense of insecurity, something it up. Whenever this happens to me, the whole thing ends up exploding in face and leaving me in shambles for the next few months. I have been through alot of friendship breakups. I have learned to trust my gut feeling on things. Because, I REFUSE to get hurt again.
2) Don't trust so easily.
Just don't. Its that simple. I did, twice. Ended with me in shambles. Like, if I met Judy last year, then I would have trusted her completely in the first 2 months. Then, later on, we wouldn't be friends anymore, because of something stupid. Now, I have known Judy for a little over a year and yeah, I like her. I don't trust her yet. But seriously? NEVER asume people are going to asume to keep certain things secret. You gotta remember the 'and don't tell anyone, k?' or else. yeah.
3) a. Your cool black, cropped, vintage-y jacket from winners for 17.99 is nothing to the 79.99 roxy/american eagle sweatshirt in the popular world.
I don't think this one has to be explained. Brand names suck. (but I still like a|e skirts/shirts...)
b. Don't pretend to like rap/rock/any music that you have to force yourself to like so you fit in.
Wow. I think I learned this back in grade 7. I was so plastic back then. INDIE/ALTERTATIVE/JPOP/PUNKPOP/TECHNO ALL THE WAY, BABY!
4) When you are angry/upset with anyone, write them a letter and don't send it.
Ok, I'm sorry this is so cliche, but it helps. I can't count how many letters I wrote in May, late at night when I couldn't sleep. I haven't sent any of them, of course. But this really helps. Its soothing. Makes you think you are actually telling these people off.
5) Growing up in this day and age SUCKS.
Nuf said.

I think I had more. If I can remember them, they will be in the next entry. Anyways, its time for me to get back into this blogging thing. No more month-long waits in between entries. No more holding back. I don't care about who sees what on here anymore. That was another reason why I didn't update for so long. But I'm better now. I swear.

PLUGGIES- Janet, Sara, Izzy, Ren-pii, Julia, and Cat.

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Grabbed my report card this morning..gragh! We were supposed to pick it up between 9-11am, and I slept in! I didn't get up intill 10:30, and its like a 25 minute walk to my school so it was 'jump out of bed, throw on yesterdays outfit that was still on the ground, brush teeth and out the door!'. I made it with 5 minutes to spare. I already had an indication of my marks, as last night was our undergrad award cerimony. I got honors in everything except gym (GRR MRS HOWARTH). But I still got honor roll! I was worried I wasn't going to get it. AND I GOT AN AWARD OF DISTINCTION. WOAH. WHERE DID THAT COME FROM. Bascially, it was an award that says you have good grades and participate in school acivities, which I always do. But, THE CATCH. YOUR PEERS NOMINATE YOU. So, of course, popular kids were almost guaranteed to get it. I have already told Kiiah this, but it was weird as hell standing up there with allison, rob, susan, steph, conner, matt, jennifer, breanna, chynna, and jenny. Like srsly. Who nominated me, besides Bailey? (and by the way, thanks bailey! you rock!)

So anyways, here are my marks...

Computer apps exam88% final mark92%
English exam79% final mark84%
Gutair final mark90%
Choir final mark84%
Musical final mark88%(I didn't even who we were getting graded on this. like, wtf?!)
Science exam89% final mark88%
Art final mark98%
Math exam87% final mark95%
Gym&Health final mark78%
Social Studies exam86% final mark85%

Yeah. Mrs.Sigmar, the art teacher, loves me :) But my science teacher, Mrs.Salki, is leaving! :(:(:(. She was so aweosme. And so is my english teacher, Mr.Roffey. English isn't going to be the same without him.

PLUGGIES- Ren-pii, Cassandra, Kiiah, Sara.

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